Memories

Facebook, Snapchat, Twitter, Instagram, Tinder, Zoosk- all social media’s.

I have a love/hate relationship with them. They help me stay connected with family and friends all over the world. Get updates quick on everyone. You can spread news fast and get information out in seconds. You go find your future husband or wife at a fingers click or swipe. You can give opinions and keep things for years.

The hate part comes in when memories are reminded to you. One year ago today I returned to Arizona. Flowers on my night stand and hearing the words I love you for the first time. Videos of a funny, silly human shooting me with nerf guns while I go to the bathroom. A video of him trying to get the cat and dogs. A video I posted of Switzerland in hopes we could go someday and him commenting about all the green. When I see the comment the picture isn’t of us, it isn’t the picture he always insisted on having because he never had pictures of us- instead it’s of them. Each time I look at them and then delete them knowing I won’t have to see them again.

It’s places like Facebook that help you reach out to your ex in secret or talk to other woman and men without anyone knowing. It’s tinder and having a profile without the other knowing because they didn’t need theirs because they had you. It’s why relationships lasted so long for the older generation because boyfriends/girlfriends, husbands and wives weren’t out searching for something “better” but working on the relationship in their home.

It places that you can sit behind a keyboard and hurt someone. It’s places that can destroy a family, friendship, relationship and a place you can ruin yourself. It’s so easy to lie now a days that you become content with doing it. However their are people like me who always find out the truth, people who can piece together events and figure out the lies.

It’s knowing your pain and living with it until you find the right thing to do to take it away. For me that means crying. When I cry and I cry hard I can release my pain and breath a little better. I don’t hold my emotions in because if I did I would stop breathing.

Facebook is a place I can update my family and let them know that the mass has grown. How I can google ideas on ways to take care of it at home until my insurance kicks in. Family members that are doctors (which is a lot in my family) can help me and let me know when I can no longer wait and just suck up the bill.

Then you have TikTok which is my favorite. It lets me get out feelings. It lets me connect with people all over the world. It’s a place I can have fun and be playful. It’s a app that I am glad I came across because when I’m bored or feeling something I can find a audio to go along with it.

Social media is a love/hate relationship in my life but it is one more thing to grow up about and deal with. Cheating, lies, loving, hurting, playing, caring is all part of life. I wish we could take away the worst and encourage the best.

Something to think about is before you do something or before you say something think about others and how it will affect them, not short term but also long term. Think how you are going to feel when the outcome comes along. Think before not after.

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