This has got to be one of the longest weeks of my life. I am exhausted beyond words. I have gone to bed early only for my body to wake in the middle of the night.
The nightmares have returned along with the mind racing. I feel so unorganized and I am not sure why. Maybe I just have to much going on or I am not taking enough time for myself.
Lots have been going on in our household. This week I dealt with the rudest human that I wouldn’t have had to deal with if people would just do their jobs correctly. She really made me feel bad about some things, things that right now I just can’t take care of. There is no need in this world to be rude or not have a understanding of what is going on in people’s lives.
I am doing so much better, I can’t even remember the last time I cried or even thought about everything that happened this year and at the end of last. I am still so proud of myself for handling everything I do each day on my own. Maybe it’s a blessing I am so busy but I know it is really taking a toll on my body with everything that is going on inside of it too.
I wish I had someone to talk to each day that cared and was there for me but I know deep down I don’t need anyone I never have. I more or less want someone but my standards are high now and my walls are even higher.
Just some things I have come across and of course some of my care free time wasting tiktoks from a few weeks ago. Mindless things are sometimes good to do to set your mind back at ease.
It is 8 pm and I am so ready for bed and the weekend.
I hope everyone is great!