What’s wrong with making them believe you are just fine? It makes them happy. That is how it should be right? To hide everything going on in your life, your feelings, your thoughts, how you are really doing, to hide it so they are happy and they can move on.
Even if you drop little hints in hopes maybe they would see it but when they don’t and they say they are glad you are ok, what’s wrong with not correcting it? They are happy, they are ok that’s all that really matters.
This last month has made me realize that they don’t need me like I do them and I no longer want to burden them. That even if I am still completely destroyed I no longer want to continue to talk about because at this point it seems useless almost dumb.
I know I will never move in from everything. I know this is how I will spend the rest of my days. This is the life I was given and while I am pissed about everything, I can’t change the outcome no matter how bad I want to.
It’s time I walk away while still being a friend. I’ll always be here but not like I want to be.
I hope everyone has a great week! ❤️